the news is in

I had my appointment with the psych. today. It was about 1 1/2 hours long. He had to re-evaluate me. So I'm still diagnosed as being bipolar... but rapid cycling one. Which means instead of cycling from manic to depressed mood 3-4 times a year, I do it very often! (i've been averaging about once a month.) I also found out that with this one, it only get's worse later on in life. I almost cried when he told me that. It was almost like how I felt when I was first diagnosed bipolar. I think I was devastated. Meds might work. He added a new med to my regiment.(i think that's the word i'm looking for.) How rapid cycling goes, is you go from manic right to depressed. This new med will hopefully work on me being less manic, which in essence should add less depression. (hopefully this technique works!) (not guaranteed.)

The Dr. was very impressed with the fact that I studied up on my disorder! He gave me info that he has to but said "you probably already know all this." He asked how much schooling I had, and when I said "some college" He's like "I thought so. I would have been surprised if you hadn't gone to college at all." He said I know my disorder well and that most people didn't. And b/c of that, it's often hard to really diagnose someone.

So that's the fyi on today's events. My new meds that i take at nite are making me quite tired. I'm about to fall asleep. So I should head to bed. I've been having to take my sleeping pills each night, but apparantly not tonight. (and maybe not at all anymore?.)