the good with the bad

Today was one of those days. Just having stressers here and there. I had one of my psychiatrist apts today. Oh yay. I don't mind going to them, but it's one of those things where you're there for like 2 hours+ literally. The Dr. pretty much kept my meds the same, but tweaked some meds. And instead of taking them 2 x's a day, i'll be taking them 1 x. I'm very excited about this. BUT

My insurance from back home runs out this month. Just found out today. The place I went to today can give meds. But you need financial info. I had pay stubs, but they need income tax forms. I made more money last year, and am fearing that I won't be able to get the meds. I'm VERY worried about this, and REALLY need to give it to God!!

IDK if I wrote about this yesturday or not, so i'ma write again. I was having a really rough day yesturday. I was in tears over nothing. Just sad and down. I had to step aside for a while and let myself go in the back and cry. I even called mom up just to talk. Well, later a customer came who in was with her mom. She was a higher functioning girl who had mental retardation. She knew exactly what she wanted. It was cute. She said something, and I couldn't hear what she said. So I had her repeat it. She told me I was very pretty. I took their order all the way down to the cash register. It was def. what I needed yesturday. God gave me a little blessing that I didn't deserve.

it's nearly 12am, which means 4 days till I arrive home. I have so many emotions that are going through me. Excitement, relief, nervousness, anxiety. Oh how the list could go on, I'm sure.

ok. Much love. See you soon if you're around when I'm around

eight days

Welp, it's officially Eight Days till I come home. Oh how there is sooo many emotions running inside of me. I honestly can't wait. Like every ounce of me is counting down. Not that I hate it here or want to leave, but I want to be home for a while. I def. have been able to see how much I miss back home. And how much of a great life I had home. I was talking to a co-worker today and started getting teary eyed. Life's not aweful here. But it's not anything like back home. I miss all my friends terribly. And not having a car does not help the situation at all. the phrase "you don't know what you have till it's gone" holds a lot of truth in my life.

I started going to councling last week. I go once a week and I'm totally stoked!!! I'm already getting a lot out of it. He's starting at the core of who I am and what's inside of me, and moving outward. I'm already seeing benefits from this.

Today I cut my leg up. the end of my bed hangs out n i tripped over it. i got about a 5 inch long scrape. Ya that's not fun. Krystal Dr'd me up though :)

Tomorrow is like most Fridays for me. I work 2 shifts. 10a-1pm then 5p-10p. I don't usually mind. Sometimes it makes for a long day. But i normally get to come home and nap in between. I had a migrain that last over a week with both the head part and the stomach part so I missed out on some hours this week. That was a bummer. But life happens.

welp, it's time for bed now. i'ma get tanner up here and we're off to sleep. See you soon! much love!