down fall of life right now

Our trailer park just got a new maintenance man. He and his (something?) just moved into the office house. He's told us at subway both it's his wife and mom. She's older. I have no idea what she is to him. He's a little freaky. I was home alone the other day while he was working on our bathroom. He did several things that freaked me out... including pulling my tank top aside to see my tattoo, sticking around and talking to me each time he walked by (again, no doors or barriers in the "hallway" of our house. I got so freaked out that i went over to work to hang out for a while. (we're not suposed to hang out there while not on shift... but i told my manager about the situation and she said she'd have done the same thing.)

So everyone down here (and i pretty much mean EVERYONE) drinks and smokes weed. I have to say that with my past, it gets a bit hard and tempting. Especially with alcohol. I so badly want to be able to just have a drink sometimes. But I know that for me, it's one drink that starts it. Even a sip would be crucial.

BUT on a good note. I'm staying strong! And everything else is great right now!!

family ties

Today Grandma asked me over for supper. :) that was so sweet of her. I enjoyed getting to know her while i was here. i also came in w/ a handfull of laundry in hand. I aksed if i could do a small load and pay her a few bucks. (it's so hard not havin a washin machine, and only having minimal work clothes.) So allowed me to wash them and wouldn't take anything. I'm here hangning out right now. Cant and i went to walmart for some groceries. Now we're here at her place just chillen, waiting for supper. it's nice coming just to hang out. it's a home away from home.

P.O.D.

Every day Andrew and I ask each other what our "Pod" is. (Praise of the Day.) It makes us think out side of the box, and about those little things in life that God blesses us with each day, not just the big obvious ones.

So here's mine for today. When I thought of Texas, I think of square dances, ho downs, yadda yadda. Well there was a county fair this weekend. You pay $5 to get in, and they give you a rist band which gets you in all weekend. We went last nite to see Flyleaf play and then went again today.

I have such a child like heart. I get joy out of the little things in life. I know it gets annoying, but I don't care toooo much. There was a petting zoo (and i love animals) so i was watching. And inside in a pen was two kangaroos!!! Oh how i laughed and watched. I was just like a 4 year old. I never saw one up close like that before.

Then we were walking the fair part tonight. And there was a booth that i fell in love with!! It was one of those little monkeys that walks around, and grabs quarters from you!! he was wearing a lil suite and put the money in his pocket!!! Ohh how i enjoyed that! i could've watched for hours!!!!

Thank YOU God for the little blessings you give us. Both those noticed and those we don't even take the time to see......

it's been a while

So everyone's been telling me how long it's been since I've posted. I didn't realize how many people followed this. Which is awesome!! I'm glad people keep up with my life. But I'd also like to know people are keeping up with ME as a person, not just what's going on and what I put in here.

It's been a while. My computer got a stinkin virus and was out of order for about 3 weeks. But now i'm up and running again, virus free! So hopefully I'll stay away from those bugs and keep this thing in good health. I didn't know what to do w/o it.

Not too much to post about I guess. The biggest thing is I was in the Emergency Room Easter night. I was prepping jalepenios around 8pm and the juice flew on my arm. I began itching everywehre and getting red blotches on me. I took some benedryl. I knew I was having an allergic reaction. By the time we closed at 10, my throat began closing and breathing was harder. Here, the juice burnt my skin and then the reaction came about. I've eaten something w/ LOADS of jalepenios in it twice and was VERY sick to my stomach. Now makes sence that I'm allergic. Lots of stuff down here has it in there though, like salsa. I think if i eat it in small increments I'm ok. But i'm not sure lol. Grrr. And down here, people put jalepenios in EVERY thing. Go figure that's what I'm allergic to.

I can't wait to go home in June for Devon's wedding!! And it will be great to see Andrew and hang out with him!!! I also look forward to seeing everyone else as well. I can't wait to bring Drew around to all my circles and have everyone meet.

I'm hungry right this minute. We don't have an oven/stove or a real fridge yet (we have a mini fridge right now.) We've been eating quite a lot of sandwiches. We want to get a hot plate and some pans, then we can cook on them. But we've had to get a lot of diff things, and don't really have the money to do all that. There's a song out there where a line says "living on dreams and spaghetti o's". that's us right now. But we're not complaining. We like our lives like this so far. Gatta start somewhere