I had my appointment with the psych. today. It was about 1 1/2 hours long. He had to re-evaluate me. So I'm still diagnosed as being bipolar... but rapid cycling one. Which means instead of cycling from manic to depressed mood 3-4 times a year, I do it very often! (i've been averaging about once a month.) I also found out that with this one, it only get's worse later on in life. I almost cried when he told me that. It was almost like how I felt when I was first diagnosed bipolar. I think I was devastated. Meds might work. He added a new med to my regiment.(i think that's the word i'm looking for.) How rapid cycling goes, is you go from manic right to depressed. This new med will hopefully work on me being less manic, which in essence should add less depression. (hopefully this technique works!) (not guaranteed.)
The Dr. was very impressed with the fact that I studied up on my disorder! He gave me info that he has to but said "you probably already know all this." He asked how much schooling I had, and when I said "some college" He's like "I thought so. I would have been surprised if you hadn't gone to college at all." He said I know my disorder well and that most people didn't. And b/c of that, it's often hard to really diagnose someone.
So that's the fyi on today's events. My new meds that i take at nite are making me quite tired. I'm about to fall asleep. So I should head to bed. I've been having to take my sleeping pills each night, but apparantly not tonight. (and maybe not at all anymore?.)
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
long awaited update
it's been a lil while again. I've had so much going on that i just couldn't blog.
Praise: I'm getting my 3 month raise (a lil early even!!!) They normally give 25 cents. My boss tried to get me more, but couldn't. it's all good though :) I'm still lovin' the job. I'm much quicker now,and doing much better. Even if my boss or anyone doesn't see how much i've stepped up my game, I know I have, and that makes me happy!!
My bipolar's been acting up on and off since being here. They have something called MHMR. (mental health, mental retardation) they help those two type of ppl. If you don't have insurance, it doesn't matter. And it's pro rated on what you make. I've had one apointment go thru. I went to one but my case worker wasn't there. Went to another one and the wait was hours so i left. And finally on Friday met my case worker! She's reallllly nice. Her job there is to be the middle man. She's my go-to person. I like her a lot. This wednesday I'll finally have my first Psychiatrist apt down here! It's a 1 1/2 hour apt though!! He has to re-evaluate me. I'm hoping/ praying that he changes my meds. B/c these just haven't been helping the last few months. It can (and normally does) take a few years, to get on meds that actually work for you. I'm not looking forward to this process at ALL. :( in fact, it's a very dark, deep scary process. This past week, i've been a monster. Bad mood swings, just not a good person to be around. ( i didn't want to be around myself (literally!!) let alone anyone else having to put up with me.)
Things are going great with my new roommate. Living pay check to pay check. But hey, we make it by. :) We also have a new addition to our house. A lil puppy named tanner. He's a long haired chiuaua. (chiwawa) idk how to spell it, so i like the latter version!
things are well with Andrew and I. Our 3 months is coming up next week. Ya'll will get to meet him when I'm home.
I think that's the gist of everything right now. Hope ya'll are doing well. I miss you guys a lot. That's been something that's been deep on my heart lately... Is missing my friends back home.
Praise: I'm getting my 3 month raise (a lil early even!!!) They normally give 25 cents. My boss tried to get me more, but couldn't. it's all good though :) I'm still lovin' the job. I'm much quicker now,and doing much better. Even if my boss or anyone doesn't see how much i've stepped up my game, I know I have, and that makes me happy!!
My bipolar's been acting up on and off since being here. They have something called MHMR. (mental health, mental retardation) they help those two type of ppl. If you don't have insurance, it doesn't matter. And it's pro rated on what you make. I've had one apointment go thru. I went to one but my case worker wasn't there. Went to another one and the wait was hours so i left. And finally on Friday met my case worker! She's reallllly nice. Her job there is to be the middle man. She's my go-to person. I like her a lot. This wednesday I'll finally have my first Psychiatrist apt down here! It's a 1 1/2 hour apt though!! He has to re-evaluate me. I'm hoping/ praying that he changes my meds. B/c these just haven't been helping the last few months. It can (and normally does) take a few years, to get on meds that actually work for you. I'm not looking forward to this process at ALL. :( in fact, it's a very dark, deep scary process. This past week, i've been a monster. Bad mood swings, just not a good person to be around. ( i didn't want to be around myself (literally!!) let alone anyone else having to put up with me.)
Things are going great with my new roommate. Living pay check to pay check. But hey, we make it by. :) We also have a new addition to our house. A lil puppy named tanner. He's a long haired chiuaua. (chiwawa) idk how to spell it, so i like the latter version!
things are well with Andrew and I. Our 3 months is coming up next week. Ya'll will get to meet him when I'm home.
I think that's the gist of everything right now. Hope ya'll are doing well. I miss you guys a lot. That's been something that's been deep on my heart lately... Is missing my friends back home.
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