This past week Cathlene got this crazy virus that's been going around. She got it on Saturday. And couldn't get up to go to work or school. She missed school all week and went to work finally on Thurs. She was in the house all week.
I have a low immune system and catch everything. I didn't catch this and was really excited!! until last nite right before I went to bed, I felt aweful. I woke up this morning knowing i caught what she had! I went to a bridal shower at a spa this morning. I just hung out, feeling eh. On the way home, Sharon took me to walmart so i could get some meds. (her husband is a pharmacist) so she knows her stuff. I loaded up on tons of meds. Hopefully if i take them regularly I'll be able to get over this thing a lot quicker.
I already have someone covering my shift tomorrow nite. B/c I know how aweful cat felt. Even w/ meds, I know I'm not ganna be over this by tomorrow. I hope I get better soon though!!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
God's little blessings
Today I'm working a split shift. 10a-2p and then 5p-10p. It was almost 2 and my boss said I could leave early since I've been there last each day this week and i work a split shift tonight. I get in the car and the clock says 1. I almost changed it, but didn't want to mess w/ cat's car w/o asking her first. I get home and then my phone says 1 o clock as well! I thought it was going on 2 and it was only 1!!! So I had a little blessing of getting done an hour early. I would have been mad if i went to clock out and realized i had an hour left, lol!!! I was wondering why Jennifer said I could leave early. I'm like oh "woo hoo 10 mins early." lol!! surprise!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, February 23, 2009
Life's moving Forward
Things down here in Texas have been getting better. Atleast, I have a load off my back w/ having a job. I like it a lot. Surprisingly!! This week I have almost 30 hours. Yaaa. That's the most I'll get. So I'm excited about this.
C.R. is going great! Cat and I went to a picknick/ bonfire Saturday nite. It was great. I'm glad she could meet all my peeps. I sure do love them! They are like a big ol family.
We were supposed to go to a church called the "cowboy church" yesturday. But cat woke up really sick. A few of my C.R. ppl. go there. I look forward to getting to know them more!
I have a lot on my mind, and a lot to pray about. I ask you to pray w/ me, for unspoken prayer requests.
It's been great talking to Andrew and getting to know him. We started out on Aim, progressed to the phone, and now we're to skype. It's being being able to see someone as you talk to them! (If you have skype, look me up!!) I used to have to be in bed by 11pm!! OR I'd get crazy grumpy. But now w/ Andrew in my life, we stay up talking till... well let's just say pretty late.
I got to talk to L.P. and Beth on Skype today. It was great! So nice to hear their voices and to see them as well. They're two of my closest girls! How I miss them.
C.R. is going great! Cat and I went to a picknick/ bonfire Saturday nite. It was great. I'm glad she could meet all my peeps. I sure do love them! They are like a big ol family.
We were supposed to go to a church called the "cowboy church" yesturday. But cat woke up really sick. A few of my C.R. ppl. go there. I look forward to getting to know them more!
I have a lot on my mind, and a lot to pray about. I ask you to pray w/ me, for unspoken prayer requests.
It's been great talking to Andrew and getting to know him. We started out on Aim, progressed to the phone, and now we're to skype. It's being being able to see someone as you talk to them! (If you have skype, look me up!!) I used to have to be in bed by 11pm!! OR I'd get crazy grumpy. But now w/ Andrew in my life, we stay up talking till... well let's just say pretty late.
I got to talk to L.P. and Beth on Skype today. It was great! So nice to hear their voices and to see them as well. They're two of my closest girls! How I miss them.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
How it happened: Andrew and I
Many people have taken notice to the fact that I am now not listed as "single" but am dating Andrew. And of course everyone is curious to know the whens and how's of it all. So here is the story.
Andrew and I both went to Thrive (the Monday night young adult group i used to go to.) He ex girlfriend and I became friends through thrive. So Andrew and I would say our hi's and bye's. We never had an attraction towards each other. But we started talking on Facebook IM and hit off really easily. We don't have a lot in common, per se, BUT we mesh very well and we just "get" each other. We talked every night on aim until 1-2am. (I hate the phone and it took me a while to be able to call him.) But now we talk on the phone most nights as well. We shared our pasts, and aired out our closets. About everything. I didn't feel like it was right to talk to someone, with the intention of dating, and them not knowing what they're getting into. After that, we decided we wanted to make it official.
Yes, We are both fully aware that this is going to be a long distance thing. And we both talked/ communicated about that. I think that when all you have to do but talk to get to know each other, is a good thing.
Andrew and I both went to Thrive (the Monday night young adult group i used to go to.) He ex girlfriend and I became friends through thrive. So Andrew and I would say our hi's and bye's. We never had an attraction towards each other. But we started talking on Facebook IM and hit off really easily. We don't have a lot in common, per se, BUT we mesh very well and we just "get" each other. We talked every night on aim until 1-2am. (I hate the phone and it took me a while to be able to call him.) But now we talk on the phone most nights as well. We shared our pasts, and aired out our closets. About everything. I didn't feel like it was right to talk to someone, with the intention of dating, and them not knowing what they're getting into. After that, we decided we wanted to make it official.
Yes, We are both fully aware that this is going to be a long distance thing. And we both talked/ communicated about that. I think that when all you have to do but talk to get to know each other, is a good thing.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
seeing a site aka site seeing
Cat has a friend who used to work with her. She moved to San Antonio a few months ago. She's 8 months pregnant and had a baby shower on Sunday that we were invited to! We were going to leave at 6, but didn't end up getting up till almost 8am. We got here around 12, after doing a few errands first.
Since we were in S.A. we decided to visit the Alamo after the shower. We got there at 5:30 and they closed at 5:30 :( It was sad. But we got to see the outside of it and take a few picture!
I love the town!! it's a big shopping area with lots of cool stuff!! I'm in love w/ that town!! Right across the street from The Alamo is a ripleys believe it or not area. There are 3 different museaums. One is 20 bucks, all three 26. We went into all three. One of them was a haunted house. Some of it was stupid. Other parts had me flipping out and was scared senceless! Literally some of my biggest fears were realized there.
Oh, to top the night off, I talked to Andrew on the way home. It was the first time we talked on the phone.
It was such a great day!
Since we were in S.A. we decided to visit the Alamo after the shower. We got there at 5:30 and they closed at 5:30 :( It was sad. But we got to see the outside of it and take a few picture!
I love the town!! it's a big shopping area with lots of cool stuff!! I'm in love w/ that town!! Right across the street from The Alamo is a ripleys believe it or not area. There are 3 different museaums. One is 20 bucks, all three 26. We went into all three. One of them was a haunted house. Some of it was stupid. Other parts had me flipping out and was scared senceless! Literally some of my biggest fears were realized there.
Oh, to top the night off, I talked to Andrew on the way home. It was the first time we talked on the phone.
It was such a great day!
Verses
I've been going to Celebrate recovery for the past month. I'ts been a great group! We have this booklet that we go through and answer questions. When we come together on Wednesdays, we share our answers. A couple verses that hit me more this week then ever before. I think it's b/c of what I"m going through in life w/ different ppl in my life. I beat myself up when things go wrong and always feel like "it's all my fault." But it's not all my fault. And I'm a person being hurt too.
from the booklet:
Stop the blame.
We cannot find peace and serenity if we continue to blame ourselves or others. Our secrets have isolated us from each other. They have prevented intimacy in all our relationships. "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and fail to notice the plank in your own? How can you say to your brother, "let me get the speck out of your eye" when this is a plank in your own?... Take the plank out of your own eye first, and then you can see clearly enough to remove your brother's speck of dust" Matthew 7:3
working together and being accountable is of great importance. "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." James 5:16
God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.
from the booklet:
Stop the blame.
We cannot find peace and serenity if we continue to blame ourselves or others. Our secrets have isolated us from each other. They have prevented intimacy in all our relationships. "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and fail to notice the plank in your own? How can you say to your brother, "let me get the speck out of your eye" when this is a plank in your own?... Take the plank out of your own eye first, and then you can see clearly enough to remove your brother's speck of dust" Matthew 7:3
working together and being accountable is of great importance. "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." James 5:16
God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.
Monday, February 16, 2009
the week I've had
I started work at Subway last week. I like it so far. I'm still in training, learning how to make the sandwhhiches and how to prep things and such. One thing I love about subway is that their stuff is fresh!! Tomatoes cucumbers, tuna, all that stuff is fresh!
So I started talking to a guy from back home this week. We are just taking the time to get to know each other, but there is interest there on both of our parts.
It makes life interesting to say the least
So I started talking to a guy from back home this week. We are just taking the time to get to know each other, but there is interest there on both of our parts.
It makes life interesting to say the least
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
a wind whirl of events...
Today I started work at Subway!! I was suposed to start at 10am but cat leaves for work at 7am so I had to go then. (this will be a normal occurance.) But since I have 24 hours worth of training to get in, Jennifer, my manager, started me at 8am, and I learned how to bake the bread! Now this was really exciting b/c when I went to school at Job Corps, my trade was baking! And I loved doing bread! It's easy here but sooo much fun! "Thank you God for the little gifts You give us (me!).
Tonight Cat and I went to the coffee shop. It's our usual hang out when we're not at home. There's a big storm coming in. Like I'm talking about tornado storm!! We left to get home, and on the way the wind was crazy!! the car was swaying back and forth and it was scary. Like 3 minutes before we got home, the storm came down! Hail and all! We jumped out of the car, when we got home, got our stuff out of the trunk and ran into the house. Dad was there with the door open for us! Praise God! We were soaked just from bing in it for less than 30 seconds!
Sunday Cat and I are driving to San Antonio!! For a baby shower! I'm excited!!!
Tonight Cat and I went to the coffee shop. It's our usual hang out when we're not at home. There's a big storm coming in. Like I'm talking about tornado storm!! We left to get home, and on the way the wind was crazy!! the car was swaying back and forth and it was scary. Like 3 minutes before we got home, the storm came down! Hail and all! We jumped out of the car, when we got home, got our stuff out of the trunk and ran into the house. Dad was there with the door open for us! Praise God! We were soaked just from bing in it for less than 30 seconds!
Sunday Cat and I are driving to San Antonio!! For a baby shower! I'm excited!!!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
new beginings
I filled out the background check on Friday for Subway. Whenever that gets back in I'll start all my other paper work, and start working. That should be tomorrow or Tuesday. I'm really excited about this.
Friday, February 6, 2009
ToRn!
The past few days have been absolutly hectic! Talk about stress. And just pure emptiness. It's hard being in a spot where you have NO idea what God wants. But as people have said God will take care of me no matter where I am. So even if I'm here and "not meant to be", He's not going to leave and forsake me.
Obviously I've been talking to ppl. lately about what's going. I talked to a good friend of mine for 2 hours last nite, then another good friend on line later. They both think it's a wise idea to go home. Their thinking: if this was meant to be for me to be here, it wouldn't be SO hard. (yes, God gives us trials, no doubt.) But this is one door after another closing. And then I think about the rental SUV. And if that was God warning me not to come b/c all this would happen.
I looked into plane tickets last nite. And found some great deals. I thought maybe someone who wouldn't mind could come and get me. But the ticket and sending my stuff home is still cheaper than the gas would be.
I decided to still fill out applications though. That way if I do stay here, I have a head start.
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Side note!!!
Cathlene works at Subway right down the street. I've been trying to get a job there, but one they didn't want to hire me b/c I'm cat's friend. and 2 they don't need more night ppl, but day. I filled an application out last nite anyway. Cat JUST called and her boss said she'll hire me (now that i can work days.) if i can work sundays. (b/c too many ppl. there can't work sundays.) I said yes, IF it was in the afternoon, so i could still go to church.
Obviously I've been talking to ppl. lately about what's going. I talked to a good friend of mine for 2 hours last nite, then another good friend on line later. They both think it's a wise idea to go home. Their thinking: if this was meant to be for me to be here, it wouldn't be SO hard. (yes, God gives us trials, no doubt.) But this is one door after another closing. And then I think about the rental SUV. And if that was God warning me not to come b/c all this would happen.
I looked into plane tickets last nite. And found some great deals. I thought maybe someone who wouldn't mind could come and get me. But the ticket and sending my stuff home is still cheaper than the gas would be.
I decided to still fill out applications though. That way if I do stay here, I have a head start.
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Side note!!!
Cathlene works at Subway right down the street. I've been trying to get a job there, but one they didn't want to hire me b/c I'm cat's friend. and 2 they don't need more night ppl, but day. I filled an application out last nite anyway. Cat JUST called and her boss said she'll hire me (now that i can work days.) if i can work sundays. (b/c too many ppl. there can't work sundays.) I said yes, IF it was in the afternoon, so i could still go to church.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
what's going on
I met w/ one of the young adult leaders (carol) last nite and discussed my situation. We decided it'd be best to even drop my hisotry class as well. (b/c that's money I don't have.) And look for a job. Her and I came up w/ a bunch of good ideas. Today Cat and I went to temple (near collge) and I picked up close to 10? applications. Tonight I'm filling them out and making some phone calls to other places. (I have a good amount of resources right now!)
I was in the living w/ Cat's grandma today. She was like "so you'r financial aid didn't work out." I was like "No, now I'm just looking for a full time job."
Later in the day Cat and I went to lunch and get applications and grandma came. I told her I knew my month was almost up, but if she wouldn't mind me staying there until I get a job. I also told her I'd still pay her each week. She said that's not a problem. I told her It's been on my mind a lot and that I don't want to have no where to live. she said "as long as you know us you'll never be out on the streets." So that was a good conversation. My mind can be at rest about one more thing.
I was in the living w/ Cat's grandma today. She was like "so you'r financial aid didn't work out." I was like "No, now I'm just looking for a full time job."
Later in the day Cat and I went to lunch and get applications and grandma came. I told her I knew my month was almost up, but if she wouldn't mind me staying there until I get a job. I also told her I'd still pay her each week. She said that's not a problem. I told her It's been on my mind a lot and that I don't want to have no where to live. she said "as long as you know us you'll never be out on the streets." So that was a good conversation. My mind can be at rest about one more thing.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Decisions to be made
I had a long day today. One with more heart ache, and distress. My classes are $2000. How, IDK! but I can't afford that! So anyway I have to decide weather I'm coming home, staying here and finding a job/place to live. Drop all classes, keep some. I have decide about my classes by 6pm tom. So the preasure is on.
After talking to a good friend tonight this is the game plan we came up with. I'm going to keep my History class. B/c I took histoy 3 x's before and only passed the 3rd time due to loads of xtra credit. Go figure it's a history that doesn't transfer well. Being that I'm thinking I should pass this class, I"m ganna keep it. But drop the others.
I'm giving myself a month. In this month I will like ferverently for a job. (and then a place to live.) If I come up w/ nothing in that time slot, then I will procede home. That way it gives me some time to figure things out here and not just " throw in the towel". But also gives me a game plan.
After talking to a good friend tonight this is the game plan we came up with. I'm going to keep my History class. B/c I took histoy 3 x's before and only passed the 3rd time due to loads of xtra credit. Go figure it's a history that doesn't transfer well. Being that I'm thinking I should pass this class, I"m ganna keep it. But drop the others.
I'm giving myself a month. In this month I will like ferverently for a job. (and then a place to live.) If I come up w/ nothing in that time slot, then I will procede home. That way it gives me some time to figure things out here and not just " throw in the towel". But also gives me a game plan.
Monday, February 2, 2009
more problems
Cat and I went on line to set up payment arrangements for this semester. NOW it's telling us my semester went from 700 to over 2000!! WHAT! So we have to go and talk to some ppl tomorrow. If that's the case, I'm so coming home!! Or finding a job and working. But I"m not going to stay there this sem. for that much money!
Monday I have my first text. It's in psychology. We're learning a lot of biology non sence right now. (but it's important.) Being that it's a rough chapter, it's open notes. There are a few charts in the book that she told us to copy. I don't think I'm ganna do great. But I"m hoping to do "ok". A LOT of studying this week! (that's if I get to stay in school. AS much as I want to quit and come home. I also want to stay this semester and stick it out. I know it's ganna be hard, but I think I can do it. And I want to see if I can.
Monday I have my first text. It's in psychology. We're learning a lot of biology non sence right now. (but it's important.) Being that it's a rough chapter, it's open notes. There are a few charts in the book that she told us to copy. I don't think I'm ganna do great. But I"m hoping to do "ok". A LOT of studying this week! (that's if I get to stay in school. AS much as I want to quit and come home. I also want to stay this semester and stick it out. I know it's ganna be hard, but I think I can do it. And I want to see if I can.
Oh life...
Last week was a bad week for me. My bipolar was flarring up and just other things going on. Last night all I could think about was coming home for good at the end of the semester. But I feel like it'd be rough there too. I don't know if i'd be able to fit back in w/ my friends. It's been a month already of not much contact w/ them. If I could back, would it be able to "be the same?" I'm not sure.
Atleast I'd prolly have a job, and a car and a place to live. All things I don't have but need down here.
And I'm second guessing school right now. Why am I here. School is HARD for me! it will take me longer than 2 years to get an ass. degree. Once I get more into the Social work field, am I going to be able to handle the classes? I have a feeling not. So why am I even trying? Waisting my time?
Atleast I'd prolly have a job, and a car and a place to live. All things I don't have but need down here.
And I'm second guessing school right now. Why am I here. School is HARD for me! it will take me longer than 2 years to get an ass. degree. Once I get more into the Social work field, am I going to be able to handle the classes? I have a feeling not. So why am I even trying? Waisting my time?
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