ToRn!

The past few days have been absolutly hectic! Talk about stress. And just pure emptiness. It's hard being in a spot where you have NO idea what God wants. But as people have said God will take care of me no matter where I am. So even if I'm here and "not meant to be", He's not going to leave and forsake me.

Obviously I've been talking to ppl. lately about what's going. I talked to a good friend of mine for 2 hours last nite, then another good friend on line later. They both think it's a wise idea to go home. Their thinking: if this was meant to be for me to be here, it wouldn't be SO hard. (yes, God gives us trials, no doubt.) But this is one door after another closing. And then I think about the rental SUV. And if that was God warning me not to come b/c all this would happen.

I looked into plane tickets last nite. And found some great deals. I thought maybe someone who wouldn't mind could come and get me. But the ticket and sending my stuff home is still cheaper than the gas would be.

I decided to still fill out applications though. That way if I do stay here, I have a head start.

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Side note!!!

Cathlene works at Subway right down the street. I've been trying to get a job there, but one they didn't want to hire me b/c I'm cat's friend. and 2 they don't need more night ppl, but day. I filled an application out last nite anyway. Cat JUST called and her boss said she'll hire me (now that i can work days.) if i can work sundays. (b/c too many ppl. there can't work sundays.) I said yes, IF it was in the afternoon, so i could still go to church.