friends

So I've been here a week now. Today makes it a week. It's hard being down here, only knowing one person, and not having a car. I was going to get a car w/ my financial aid, but that's not working out.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately (past month or so) about friends in my life. I was talking to Cat about it. And we were talking about certain things. She allowed me to realize that some of my firendships are not friendships at all, but contracts. (It will work fine, if you do things my way.) And that's just not a friendship. I won't even have that type of relationship w/ my husband. Why on earth should I have it w/ my friends?

And I have to admit, it's been sad that people haven't tried to keep more in touch w/ me. I hate how making it to bed by a certain time is more important than talking to me for 5-10 minutes. I don't know. I feel like I have a lot to think about.